it's time...

"adoi, pedihnya kata2 itu"

realiti selalunya pedih...kembali kepada realiti sebenar, aku seakan2 baru terjaga daripada tidur.. realiti yang begitu pedih mengimbau kembali ketidakmatangan aku, yang bergelar seorang mahasisiwa...

"dah 22 rupanya aku.."

satu kenyataan yang membuatkan aku tersentak..membuatkan aku sedar, umurku semakin meningkat, tapi aku masih di takuk yang lama...

"aku nak berubah, tapi aku perlukan masa.."

mindset yang tak membawa aku ke mana2...masih still di level yang dulu..beginner..birthday kali ni opened my eyes..opportunity xkn dtg kalau kita sendiri tak cari..dan kejayaan takkan datang bergolak tanpa usaha..

aku ingin berubah tapi at the same time, i refuse to accept the fact that changes have to be done step by step..not expected to be good at one push...no..no...changes have theirs own stages..that we must go through...

that kind of mindset will only lead to one answer..you'll never be able to change..may be you will..but the changes might not pleased you as it happen beyond your expectance...

as for me, i think that changes need its own plan to succeed..in order to make the first move, we must plan to change...not just wait till it happen by itself..don't always blame the time for our failure

"i need time..."

"i need more time to change..."

the time is already given to you, yet you still make no move..time is not the problem here..

"it is you!"

i always tend to think that changes need a lot of commitments and responsibilities..that i refused to accept and live with it...but in fact, i live lying to myself..

try to live in old style..giving excuses about being myself..

"be yourself, don't be someone else.."

"don't be hypocrite.."

"don't pretend to be her, be yourself...show your true self, don't act good, as you aren't that good"

sometimes it's good to pretend, to be hypocrite in order to change..an old friend used to say,

"it's okay to pretend, because at the end you gain your trust..trust upon yourself to be change for better..inshaallah.."