Khamis, Februari 17, 2011

it's begin...[part2]

that day, never came to my thought, would be the day of a start for a long journey in a place, i begin to recognize it as one of my historical holidays...the unforgettable ones..~

after a tiring night, i woke up early that morning..the excitement could be felt, but there was something bothering me..i have no idea what the unrest feeling was..i kept comforting myself the whole morning, till i hopped in the bus, the feeling just disappear and the trembling heart of the upcoming journey crawling in..





the 4-hour-trip by bus went smoothly without any problem at all..about half an hour after we started our journey to cairo, the phone begun to ring again, since i last heard was yesterday, before the whole connection was blocked by the government. everyone seemed relief and happy..

we thought all went as planned and we were about to fly to uk until we were showered with a disturbing news..those news really grabbed our heart...

"the flight to uk was cancel!!!"

"imagine what will you do if you were in my place...?"

our airline was the earliest one to cancel their flight...and the cancellation continued with the other airlines except egypt air..the next day, we heard egypt air also begun to cancel their flights..

we were panicked and didn't know what to do...we searched the BMI office, the airline that we took to go to uk..

the office was closed..the light was off...there was no one..no one to ask..no one at all...~

the egypt air office was full with people, trying to get new tickets..those were the people whose flights were cancelled...those people, they got money, as for us, if we bought new ticket to london, then how are we going to survive there..

so after a thorough consideration, we decided to go back to malaysia..we also heard hearsay, saying if we go to london, we might not be able to return to egypt..i never thought that, thing do turned out as they said...the condition really got worst...




that evening, we head out to terminal one....
everyone's mind was full with thoughts..no one knew what was in others' mind...
as for me i started to dream of malaysian food..and my mom's cooking...
and thats how we put an end to our evening's meal before opening new page of the dinner's appetizers...the night snack was awaited us....

don't dream of something that you don't know...because the night is still young..oh wait, it just begin...!~

to be continues...


end part two..~

Selasa, Februari 15, 2011

once upon a moment...[part1]

when i recalled back, what really happen back then..i'm stunned..
those thoughts do wandered far away from my expectations..
i'm mesmerized..

when i rewind the whole plot,
when i reverse the moments of those back 2 weeks earlier, never crossed my mind this would happen..really i'm mesmerised by His power and the flow of the life...subhanallah..how beautiful~

and that story begins...

[a day before final paper for first semester..]

police's day..i suppose

a day when all this thing started..and that what i assume, never know the real time when it really begin...

that evening, i was with my book..holding them, without reading them..huhu..it's evening, mood to study do sway little by little..till then, i heard something loud from outside..dunno how to describe, but it attracted my sleepy eyes..
the sound of shouting..dunno what they were shouting, but i believe it was something interesting...



this is only the start of the demostration before the whole street is full with only heads..

[the battery of my phone was low before i could capture those climax..huhu]


the sleepy evening turned into a lively evening..
a big demostration walk in through the port said street, right in front of the building where our house located..a live show..right before these two eyes..
i was overjoyed and over-excited..

at first, i thought that it was only a normal demostration, just for the police's day celebration..but it was not like i used to think...it was beyond that...~

the day after that, we got arabic class..the teacher that teach our class, asked us...

teacher : what do you think about the demostration yesterday?
us : "errr it was cool"
"just so-so"
"what's that?".....etc

teacher : what do you do?
us : "err just watch from afar"
"take photos"
"don't do anything"
"excited to see"
"record it in the video"....etc

the teacher smiled...

end part one

Isnin, Februari 14, 2011

selamat hari lahir wahai kekasih Allah..~

a sunset view from my window
[location:alexandria,egypt]

assalamualaikum..
terasa cam nak menulis sumthin malam ni..hari ni maulidul rasul..berkumandang sahut menyahut selawat ke atas junjungan kita Nabi Muhammad SAW kat tv..kan bagus kalau tak tunggu maulid rasul je, pasang selalu kat tv..x kurang jugak yang menayangkn cerita2 seram..apa motifnya..huhu..

tertarik dengan status sorg hamba Allah ni, ade org tanya dia kenapa kat mesir sambutan maulidul rasul xsemeriah kat msia...sbbnya, kat mesir setiap hari bg mereka adalah sambutan maulidul rasul, tiap masa waktu dan ketika selawat meniti dibibir mereka, tp kt msia hanya biler maulidul rasul sumer pakat nak selawat...aku envy org arab, mereka boleh, tp knapa kita org msia x boleh buat...

dorang punya hiburan dlm keta pon pasang alunan ayat suci Allah, tp kt msia..radio era, hotfm..etc sumer pasang lagu popular masa kini dulu dan selamanya..huhu
aku pernah, naik teksi kt mesir, tenang hati time tgh berdebar nk exam, pak cik berjanggut sejemput itu pasang alunan ayat suci..surah2 amal kalo xsilap..i miss egypt alreadi..

selamat maulidul rasul semua..moga hari2 yg mendatang selawat akn terus melekat kt bibir kita semua..amin..

Rabu, Disember 08, 2010

H.I.J.R.A.H~

salam maal hijrah~

Sabda Nabi saw : “Orang yang melakukan hijrah yang sebenar ialah yang meninggalkan perkara yang dilarang oleh Allah”.

[Riwayat Imam al-Bukhari dan Muslim]


macam mana nak hijrah...??
macam mana nak start...??
banyak caranya..~
one of them is...

"Berdoalah kamu kepadaKu, nescaya aku mustajab untuk kamu"

[Surah Ghafir ayat 60]

semuanya bergantung pada diri masing-masing...
hidayah dan petunjuk daripada Allah sudah ada di depan mata..
cuma kita sedari atau tidak semuanya bergantung kepada kita...~

ya Allah, berikanlah kami hijrah yang sebenar-benarnya..jauhkanlah kami dari tercicir dalam "journey" menuju syurgaNya~
[doa aku,.dia,.kamu,.kami,.mereka,.dan...]



kenangan di turki...miss those moments~

jumpa gmbr ni bila geledah hardisk..~

Ahad, Disember 05, 2010

oh yeaaahh!




assalamualaikum...cam terasa nak share kat sini la..hehe..
hari ni seperti hari2 yg lain jgk rasa malas sangat nk pergi kelas..almaklum lah kelas hr ni 2 jam je, tapi belah petang...bila dah x keluar sejak dr pagi lagi, jd malas sgt nk keluar ke kelas petang ni..huhu

tapi aku teringat pesan seorang sahabat ni,

aku : malasnyer nk pergi kelas hari ni!

sahabat : pergilah..dapat berkat


aku : bukannya faham pun..


sahabat : xpe..slow2 la..apa yang penting keberkatan tu..


sebelum ke kelas...

cuba betulkan niat..teringat pesan ust akli..wah bermanfaat jgk pegi ke kelas tafaqquh..selalu je liat nak pergi kelas tafaqquh..mujur la ahli beit semua jenis yang kaki ilmu..alhamdulillah~


kat kelas...


"wah topik hr ni psl yang aku xfaham2..dua tiga malam duk baca xfaham2 jugak..doktor terang detail hr ni..best2!!"


dalam hati...


"mujurlah aku ke kelas hari ni...alhamdulillah~" ^_^



"apa yang penting?"

"KEBERKATAN!!!"



the end~

Sabtu, Disember 04, 2010

oh...erk!



assalamualaikum...lama rasanya x update blog...bukannya xde masa, tapi malas..malas nak men'update' blog...banyak pengalaman2 menarik semenjak dua tiga bulan yg lepas..nak kongsi, tapi tak tertulis di blog ini..cuma terbuku dalam kotak memori..ntah masih di situ atau sudah ke ruang "recycle bin"...pepun hari ni tergerak hati nak menulis kembali bila ada seorang sahabat, pernah cakap, cubalah mulakan dengan menulis then u can gain confident, bila diri ini mengadu pdnya masalah lack of confident..

dah lama masalah lack of confident ni menghantui diri..masih belum berjaya dirawat..even nak bercakap dengan sesama akhawat pun tak mampu apatah lagi di hadapan umum..huh agak scary bila terbayangkan~

tapi sampai bila nak duduk di tahap itu kan...ini belum masuk kehidupan alam perkerjaan...ntah apa yang menunggu di hari mendatang...




dua tiga hari yang lepas, berbual-bual dengan noha (kawan arab) dalam perjalanan balik..kalau dulu most of the time dia yang cakap banyak..diri ini hanya mampu cakap yes dengan no aje dan only give her my 20 cents smile as response..tapi lepas dapat advise dari sahabat tadi, cuba untuk beranikan diri untuk cakap lebih banyak...dan keputusannya agak memberangsangkan..
walaupun agak awkward, tapi biler dah start cakap jadi sangat teruja...

ntah kenapa dua tiga hari yang lepas, ramai aje budak2 arab yang datang tegur aku..terasa cam femos kejap..rasanya dah nak dekat 2 bulan aku attend kuliah, muka yang selalu datang kelas dan muka yang selalu datang lewat ni dah lama bertapak dalam kelas dorang, xkan tak perasan kot..nape baru sekarang baru nak tegur...konfius kejap~

tapi xpe, best gak dorang tegur, banyak input aku dpt..dpt tambah kawan..
mungkin dorang tak berani kot nak tegur sebelum ni..org yang first tegur aku adalah noha..aku dah jadi kawan baik dah dengan noha ni..dia sangat baik..minggu lepas dia belanja aku air kotak...walaupun hanya air kotak..hilang dahaga aku masa tu~




xde la aku sorang2 sangat dalam kelas tu..hehe..hari tu hari first aku masuk kelas..almaklum la buat cuti sendiri dekat 2 minggu lebih gak aku skip kelas...kalau dah balik m'sia susah nk dtg sini smula..mcm2 alasan nk tunda tiket flight..sambung balik dan noha ni datang lewat hri tu, dia tengah cari tmpt duduk, kebetulan tepi aku kosong jd dia pun pegi duduk tepi aku..

noha : ada org x?
aku : xde..duduk la [dalam bhs arab, aku translatekan dlm bm..]

dan bermulalah persahabatan kami~

aku ada beberapa orang kawan dari tahun lepas, tapi tahun ni semua dah lain2 section..so jarang2 sangat jumpa dorang..tapi yang selalu jumpa adalah kawan sha'ier..sbb nyer dia punya no sebelum aku..huh~

aku 1038, dia 1037..si sha'ier 1036..sejak tahun 2 lg aku mmg duk tepi si sha'ier ni biler xm, tp ok gak dia agk macho kdg2..kawan sha'ier ni x baper macho..nama dia nuruddin..masa xm hr tu dia buat dek je aku xdpt lg kertas jawapan..adoii sakit hati tol..mujur la ader nour kat blkg aku tolong panggil doktor..almaklumlah suara aku ntah apa2..low pitch,tp aku rs aku dah jerit sekuat hati dah tu...slalu jer lecturer xdgr apa aku cakap..sedey tol~

si sha'ier ni aku paling xsuka sbb dia ni suka merokok..dia geng la dengan si "purple"..aku x tau nama budak ni, tp kami slalu panggil budak tu purple sbb dia suka pakai baju purple, dulu zaman aku "budak2" aku ader crush jgk dgn mamat purple ni, tp skrg dh x lagi...hehe..kelakar biler ingat zaman 1st yer..tahun ni aku satu group dengan si sha'ier lagi...dushh!...x suka~
purple dah lama xjumpa...ingat lg, sblm presentation thn lepas dia pakai kot baju kt dlm purple..mmg sah budak ni suka purple! oh..erk..!

banyak betul berceloteh..ntah apa2..tengah boring2 studi best gak, ader tempat leh luah perasaan dan share stories~

Ahad, Jun 13, 2010

nothing...


it has been a while since i updated this blog..nak tulis dlm omputeh la pulak..tukar selera..fatrah xm nih..perkasa english skett..buat bekal tyme jawab paper nanti..kihh333
xde modal sbnrnya nk tulis apa..tp since dh lama x update, tgk member update dia punya, terdetik kat kotak minda aku, nk update gak la blog..lama dh bersarang..
hari2 routine biase je kehidupan aku..tp this week most of my time is in the home..in my room..everybody has been hibernated since it's examination weeks..but i'm suppose, i can used a brief walk along mediterrean sea after i finish all the papers..i'm longing to see the beach..kih33.. XP

it has been a stressedful week..i'm suffered from grieveness and loneliness..such a diseased...
i'm longing for ice cream..kih33..huh purposeless post..
nothing special happens in my daily routine..the same old routine, i wish for something to happen..extraordinary things..erm like..i supposed i'm too old to dream such things to happen..like the old fairy tales..seems only a story, told from generation to generation..a sacred lies..

i've never thought that life could be this lonely..alone by yourself..to old to move forward..to ashamed to ask for shelter..to weak to seek for joy..mumbling by myself again..*lalala*
this happen when you're in examination mode..all things that occurs seem unreasonable yet so alive..

to make this post a little bit beneficial..i supposed i should add some seasoning to make it more dashing and mouth-watering dishes..
oh, i remembered something..it's so hard to find a good friend that always stand by your side and always hear what you want to say and always there whenever you need someone to share thoughts..i've been thinking that it is a little bit lonely when there is nobody to talk to about your problems..that is why i'm suppose people (girls) tend to find "adams" to share thoughts..i'm not sure about boys because boys are different from girls..they have different views about how they see things..

but the point here that if you tend to find a good friend..you yourself must be a good friend towards others first..never expect someone to be good to you unless you start it first..world is full of surprises that it seem to have surprised me every single moment..
how to become a good friend..i'm lookin forward for that..it is not the best things to turn for "adams" whenever you feel lonely..as i remembered reading an article about a couple in iluvislam.com this morning...he feels lonely and then he turn out to seek for soulmate that can share his loneliness..but at the end he know what he has been doing is wrong, although their relationship based on "islamic" as they assumed but there is no legal relationship in islam until you are married to each other..the end~

and seek for that love..by which the love for Him is the only pure love..that can only be gain by pure heart and sacred soul..seek for that love, then you find that life is not that lonely~

Rabu, Mei 05, 2010

is it real..?



yeah..it's love indeed..but is it real...?


fall in love..
have u ever fall in love...?

love is something that can't be describe through words..

love..ada apa dengan cinta...?

tanya padaku, sah xtau apa2..
percaya x, kalau aku katakan, yg aku tak pernah bercinta..jatuh cinta...errr...out of question..
aku selalu je dengar, couple ni haram..ya, mmg Islam mengharamkan couple sblm kahwin..aku yakin ramai je yg tahu, tapi kdg2 dorg xboleh nk terima..
even kalau aku di tempat dorang pun, belum tentu aku dapat accept it and terus break up dgn pasangan aku..
it's hard to accept something that u treasure so much in your life...bayangkan losing someone that u love..

tapi penahkah terpikir,

bagaimana kalau jejaka/i itu bukanlah jodoh kamu yg sebenarnya...

bagaimana jika jejaka/i itu hanyalah mainan usia remajamu saja...


bagaimana jika jejaka/i itu di masa hadapan bukanlah orang yang bakal mengisi hidupmu...

pernahkah terpikir,
usia remajamu dihabiskan dengan insan yang sebenarnya bukan ditakdirkan milikmu..

bayangkan,
betapa banyak kasih sayangmu yg telah dicurahkan kepada insan yang sebenarnya bukanlah
insan yang bakal melayari bahtera rumah tangga bersamamu kelak..

love is something to be appreciate not to be waste..love the nature, u gain the heart


aku tahu betapa indah, bila dicintai dan mencintai seseorang...
betapa aku berharap diri ini dicintai dan mencintai seseorang, tapi perasaan ini hanyalah akan menjadi satu racun, jika cinta yang disalurkan bukanlah milik aku yg sebenarnya...

bersabarlah kawan...
janji Allah itu benar...

till next time, stay tune on...bk@tv
kih3

Selasa, Mei 04, 2010

yup, it is...!

                       life is like a ladybird.come nowhere.and be somewhere.it's like my life.

oh my life..hari ni aku kena marah dengan doktor...sbb..aku x prepare before jumpa dia hri ni..huhu..padan muka aku..saper suh kau x redi betul2 dulu before jumpa doktor tuh...

aku mmg akui kesalahan aku..aku patut prepare dlu..jgn main copy paste je material tuh..

"ha amik kau...!"

melimpah ruah soalan doktor tanya aku..aku pulak, 

"errr...."
"aaaa..."
"i don't knoe..."

i deserve this humiliation..in front of those ppl, huh! jatuh saham aku..kih3
tp xpe la, dorang pun kena marah gak..kih3

kalau sebelum ni, aku xpenah kena marah, wlpn aku x prepare apa2 sblm jumpa doktor, main copy paste dr internet jek...sebelum ni dpt layanan baik dr doktor, org msia kan..tp kali ni...huhu..pengajaran buat aku..lain kali kena prepare before jumpa doktor..

bercakap pasal studi ni, teringat aku ade sorg ustaz ni penah kasi tau, sistem pendidikan kat msia skrg ni bukanlah mementingkan ilmu, tp mementingkan peperiksaan..asal dpt keputusan cemerlang, xkisah student nak jadi apa, asalkan akademik ok, then it's okay..
bila ustaz tu cakap cam tu, aku pun terpikir, aku pun cam tu, dalam otak studi-studi..

kenapa..?
sebab nak lulus dengan cemerlang, lepas ni dpt masuk uni, dapat pegi oversea..bla..bla..

tgk insiden hr ni, xkan jadi cam ni kalau aku anggap ilmu for life, bukan semata-mata utk assignment..akn timbul rasa tanggungjawab dlm diri aku utk do some research, not just copy paste from the internet..huhu..*insap*

kenyataannya, xde guna studi semata-mata utk xm, sbb lps ni akan lupa, bila dah abis xm, ilmu yg kau belajar sumer dah dicurahkan atas ketas peksa..jadi apa lg yg tinggal...

bayangkan out there, berapa ramai yg berfikiran cam aku, studi sbb nk lulus xm...berapa ramai yg benar-benar ikhlas belajar, sbb nak dpt ilmu, bukan untuk lulus xm...berapa ramai yg benar-benar ikhlas kerana Allah taala..

aku terpikir, kini baru aku tahu, hidup ini bukanlah semata-mata untuk xm, ilmu tu bukan hanya pada kertas peperiksaan, bila dah abis xm, xberguna lagi..bukan!

it's something u live with it...

it's something u treasure and use in everydays life...



it's begin...[part2]

that day, never came to my thought, would be the day of a start for a long journey in a place, i begin to recognize it as one of my historical holidays...the unforgettable ones..~

after a tiring night, i woke up early that morning..the excitement could be felt, but there was something bothering me..i have no idea what the unrest feeling was..i kept comforting myself the whole morning, till i hopped in the bus, the feeling just disappear and the trembling heart of the upcoming journey crawling in..





the 4-hour-trip by bus went smoothly without any problem at all..about half an hour after we started our journey to cairo, the phone begun to ring again, since i last heard was yesterday, before the whole connection was blocked by the government. everyone seemed relief and happy..

we thought all went as planned and we were about to fly to uk until we were showered with a disturbing news..those news really grabbed our heart...

"the flight to uk was cancel!!!"

"imagine what will you do if you were in my place...?"

our airline was the earliest one to cancel their flight...and the cancellation continued with the other airlines except egypt air..the next day, we heard egypt air also begun to cancel their flights..

we were panicked and didn't know what to do...we searched the BMI office, the airline that we took to go to uk..

the office was closed..the light was off...there was no one..no one to ask..no one at all...~

the egypt air office was full with people, trying to get new tickets..those were the people whose flights were cancelled...those people, they got money, as for us, if we bought new ticket to london, then how are we going to survive there..

so after a thorough consideration, we decided to go back to malaysia..we also heard hearsay, saying if we go to london, we might not be able to return to egypt..i never thought that, thing do turned out as they said...the condition really got worst...




that evening, we head out to terminal one....
everyone's mind was full with thoughts..no one knew what was in others' mind...
as for me i started to dream of malaysian food..and my mom's cooking...
and thats how we put an end to our evening's meal before opening new page of the dinner's appetizers...the night snack was awaited us....

don't dream of something that you don't know...because the night is still young..oh wait, it just begin...!~

to be continues...


end part two..~

once upon a moment...[part1]

when i recalled back, what really happen back then..i'm stunned..
those thoughts do wandered far away from my expectations..
i'm mesmerized..

when i rewind the whole plot,
when i reverse the moments of those back 2 weeks earlier, never crossed my mind this would happen..really i'm mesmerised by His power and the flow of the life...subhanallah..how beautiful~

and that story begins...

[a day before final paper for first semester..]

police's day..i suppose

a day when all this thing started..and that what i assume, never know the real time when it really begin...

that evening, i was with my book..holding them, without reading them..huhu..it's evening, mood to study do sway little by little..till then, i heard something loud from outside..dunno how to describe, but it attracted my sleepy eyes..
the sound of shouting..dunno what they were shouting, but i believe it was something interesting...



this is only the start of the demostration before the whole street is full with only heads..

[the battery of my phone was low before i could capture those climax..huhu]


the sleepy evening turned into a lively evening..
a big demostration walk in through the port said street, right in front of the building where our house located..a live show..right before these two eyes..
i was overjoyed and over-excited..

at first, i thought that it was only a normal demostration, just for the police's day celebration..but it was not like i used to think...it was beyond that...~

the day after that, we got arabic class..the teacher that teach our class, asked us...

teacher : what do you think about the demostration yesterday?
us : "errr it was cool"
"just so-so"
"what's that?".....etc

teacher : what do you do?
us : "err just watch from afar"
"take photos"
"don't do anything"
"excited to see"
"record it in the video"....etc

the teacher smiled...

end part one

selamat hari lahir wahai kekasih Allah..~

a sunset view from my window
[location:alexandria,egypt]

assalamualaikum..
terasa cam nak menulis sumthin malam ni..hari ni maulidul rasul..berkumandang sahut menyahut selawat ke atas junjungan kita Nabi Muhammad SAW kat tv..kan bagus kalau tak tunggu maulid rasul je, pasang selalu kat tv..x kurang jugak yang menayangkn cerita2 seram..apa motifnya..huhu..

tertarik dengan status sorg hamba Allah ni, ade org tanya dia kenapa kat mesir sambutan maulidul rasul xsemeriah kat msia...sbbnya, kat mesir setiap hari bg mereka adalah sambutan maulidul rasul, tiap masa waktu dan ketika selawat meniti dibibir mereka, tp kt msia hanya biler maulidul rasul sumer pakat nak selawat...aku envy org arab, mereka boleh, tp knapa kita org msia x boleh buat...

dorang punya hiburan dlm keta pon pasang alunan ayat suci Allah, tp kt msia..radio era, hotfm..etc sumer pasang lagu popular masa kini dulu dan selamanya..huhu
aku pernah, naik teksi kt mesir, tenang hati time tgh berdebar nk exam, pak cik berjanggut sejemput itu pasang alunan ayat suci..surah2 amal kalo xsilap..i miss egypt alreadi..

selamat maulidul rasul semua..moga hari2 yg mendatang selawat akn terus melekat kt bibir kita semua..amin..

H.I.J.R.A.H~

salam maal hijrah~

Sabda Nabi saw : “Orang yang melakukan hijrah yang sebenar ialah yang meninggalkan perkara yang dilarang oleh Allah”.

[Riwayat Imam al-Bukhari dan Muslim]


macam mana nak hijrah...??
macam mana nak start...??
banyak caranya..~
one of them is...

"Berdoalah kamu kepadaKu, nescaya aku mustajab untuk kamu"

[Surah Ghafir ayat 60]

semuanya bergantung pada diri masing-masing...
hidayah dan petunjuk daripada Allah sudah ada di depan mata..
cuma kita sedari atau tidak semuanya bergantung kepada kita...~

ya Allah, berikanlah kami hijrah yang sebenar-benarnya..jauhkanlah kami dari tercicir dalam "journey" menuju syurgaNya~
[doa aku,.dia,.kamu,.kami,.mereka,.dan...]



kenangan di turki...miss those moments~

jumpa gmbr ni bila geledah hardisk..~

oh yeaaahh!




assalamualaikum...cam terasa nak share kat sini la..hehe..
hari ni seperti hari2 yg lain jgk rasa malas sangat nk pergi kelas..almaklum lah kelas hr ni 2 jam je, tapi belah petang...bila dah x keluar sejak dr pagi lagi, jd malas sgt nk keluar ke kelas petang ni..huhu

tapi aku teringat pesan seorang sahabat ni,

aku : malasnyer nk pergi kelas hari ni!

sahabat : pergilah..dapat berkat


aku : bukannya faham pun..


sahabat : xpe..slow2 la..apa yang penting keberkatan tu..


sebelum ke kelas...

cuba betulkan niat..teringat pesan ust akli..wah bermanfaat jgk pegi ke kelas tafaqquh..selalu je liat nak pergi kelas tafaqquh..mujur la ahli beit semua jenis yang kaki ilmu..alhamdulillah~


kat kelas...


"wah topik hr ni psl yang aku xfaham2..dua tiga malam duk baca xfaham2 jugak..doktor terang detail hr ni..best2!!"


dalam hati...


"mujurlah aku ke kelas hari ni...alhamdulillah~" ^_^



"apa yang penting?"

"KEBERKATAN!!!"



the end~

oh...erk!



assalamualaikum...lama rasanya x update blog...bukannya xde masa, tapi malas..malas nak men'update' blog...banyak pengalaman2 menarik semenjak dua tiga bulan yg lepas..nak kongsi, tapi tak tertulis di blog ini..cuma terbuku dalam kotak memori..ntah masih di situ atau sudah ke ruang "recycle bin"...pepun hari ni tergerak hati nak menulis kembali bila ada seorang sahabat, pernah cakap, cubalah mulakan dengan menulis then u can gain confident, bila diri ini mengadu pdnya masalah lack of confident..

dah lama masalah lack of confident ni menghantui diri..masih belum berjaya dirawat..even nak bercakap dengan sesama akhawat pun tak mampu apatah lagi di hadapan umum..huh agak scary bila terbayangkan~

tapi sampai bila nak duduk di tahap itu kan...ini belum masuk kehidupan alam perkerjaan...ntah apa yang menunggu di hari mendatang...




dua tiga hari yang lepas, berbual-bual dengan noha (kawan arab) dalam perjalanan balik..kalau dulu most of the time dia yang cakap banyak..diri ini hanya mampu cakap yes dengan no aje dan only give her my 20 cents smile as response..tapi lepas dapat advise dari sahabat tadi, cuba untuk beranikan diri untuk cakap lebih banyak...dan keputusannya agak memberangsangkan..
walaupun agak awkward, tapi biler dah start cakap jadi sangat teruja...

ntah kenapa dua tiga hari yang lepas, ramai aje budak2 arab yang datang tegur aku..terasa cam femos kejap..rasanya dah nak dekat 2 bulan aku attend kuliah, muka yang selalu datang kelas dan muka yang selalu datang lewat ni dah lama bertapak dalam kelas dorang, xkan tak perasan kot..nape baru sekarang baru nak tegur...konfius kejap~

tapi xpe, best gak dorang tegur, banyak input aku dpt..dpt tambah kawan..
mungkin dorang tak berani kot nak tegur sebelum ni..org yang first tegur aku adalah noha..aku dah jadi kawan baik dah dengan noha ni..dia sangat baik..minggu lepas dia belanja aku air kotak...walaupun hanya air kotak..hilang dahaga aku masa tu~




xde la aku sorang2 sangat dalam kelas tu..hehe..hari tu hari first aku masuk kelas..almaklum la buat cuti sendiri dekat 2 minggu lebih gak aku skip kelas...kalau dah balik m'sia susah nk dtg sini smula..mcm2 alasan nk tunda tiket flight..sambung balik dan noha ni datang lewat hri tu, dia tengah cari tmpt duduk, kebetulan tepi aku kosong jd dia pun pegi duduk tepi aku..

noha : ada org x?
aku : xde..duduk la [dalam bhs arab, aku translatekan dlm bm..]

dan bermulalah persahabatan kami~

aku ada beberapa orang kawan dari tahun lepas, tapi tahun ni semua dah lain2 section..so jarang2 sangat jumpa dorang..tapi yang selalu jumpa adalah kawan sha'ier..sbb nyer dia punya no sebelum aku..huh~

aku 1038, dia 1037..si sha'ier 1036..sejak tahun 2 lg aku mmg duk tepi si sha'ier ni biler xm, tp ok gak dia agk macho kdg2..kawan sha'ier ni x baper macho..nama dia nuruddin..masa xm hr tu dia buat dek je aku xdpt lg kertas jawapan..adoii sakit hati tol..mujur la ader nour kat blkg aku tolong panggil doktor..almaklumlah suara aku ntah apa2..low pitch,tp aku rs aku dah jerit sekuat hati dah tu...slalu jer lecturer xdgr apa aku cakap..sedey tol~

si sha'ier ni aku paling xsuka sbb dia ni suka merokok..dia geng la dengan si "purple"..aku x tau nama budak ni, tp kami slalu panggil budak tu purple sbb dia suka pakai baju purple, dulu zaman aku "budak2" aku ader crush jgk dgn mamat purple ni, tp skrg dh x lagi...hehe..kelakar biler ingat zaman 1st yer..tahun ni aku satu group dengan si sha'ier lagi...dushh!...x suka~
purple dah lama xjumpa...ingat lg, sblm presentation thn lepas dia pakai kot baju kt dlm purple..mmg sah budak ni suka purple! oh..erk..!

banyak betul berceloteh..ntah apa2..tengah boring2 studi best gak, ader tempat leh luah perasaan dan share stories~

nothing...


it has been a while since i updated this blog..nak tulis dlm omputeh la pulak..tukar selera..fatrah xm nih..perkasa english skett..buat bekal tyme jawab paper nanti..kihh333
xde modal sbnrnya nk tulis apa..tp since dh lama x update, tgk member update dia punya, terdetik kat kotak minda aku, nk update gak la blog..lama dh bersarang..
hari2 routine biase je kehidupan aku..tp this week most of my time is in the home..in my room..everybody has been hibernated since it's examination weeks..but i'm suppose, i can used a brief walk along mediterrean sea after i finish all the papers..i'm longing to see the beach..kih33.. XP

it has been a stressedful week..i'm suffered from grieveness and loneliness..such a diseased...
i'm longing for ice cream..kih33..huh purposeless post..
nothing special happens in my daily routine..the same old routine, i wish for something to happen..extraordinary things..erm like..i supposed i'm too old to dream such things to happen..like the old fairy tales..seems only a story, told from generation to generation..a sacred lies..

i've never thought that life could be this lonely..alone by yourself..to old to move forward..to ashamed to ask for shelter..to weak to seek for joy..mumbling by myself again..*lalala*
this happen when you're in examination mode..all things that occurs seem unreasonable yet so alive..

to make this post a little bit beneficial..i supposed i should add some seasoning to make it more dashing and mouth-watering dishes..
oh, i remembered something..it's so hard to find a good friend that always stand by your side and always hear what you want to say and always there whenever you need someone to share thoughts..i've been thinking that it is a little bit lonely when there is nobody to talk to about your problems..that is why i'm suppose people (girls) tend to find "adams" to share thoughts..i'm not sure about boys because boys are different from girls..they have different views about how they see things..

but the point here that if you tend to find a good friend..you yourself must be a good friend towards others first..never expect someone to be good to you unless you start it first..world is full of surprises that it seem to have surprised me every single moment..
how to become a good friend..i'm lookin forward for that..it is not the best things to turn for "adams" whenever you feel lonely..as i remembered reading an article about a couple in iluvislam.com this morning...he feels lonely and then he turn out to seek for soulmate that can share his loneliness..but at the end he know what he has been doing is wrong, although their relationship based on "islamic" as they assumed but there is no legal relationship in islam until you are married to each other..the end~

and seek for that love..by which the love for Him is the only pure love..that can only be gain by pure heart and sacred soul..seek for that love, then you find that life is not that lonely~

is it real..?



yeah..it's love indeed..but is it real...?


fall in love..
have u ever fall in love...?

love is something that can't be describe through words..

love..ada apa dengan cinta...?

tanya padaku, sah xtau apa2..
percaya x, kalau aku katakan, yg aku tak pernah bercinta..jatuh cinta...errr...out of question..
aku selalu je dengar, couple ni haram..ya, mmg Islam mengharamkan couple sblm kahwin..aku yakin ramai je yg tahu, tapi kdg2 dorg xboleh nk terima..
even kalau aku di tempat dorang pun, belum tentu aku dapat accept it and terus break up dgn pasangan aku..
it's hard to accept something that u treasure so much in your life...bayangkan losing someone that u love..

tapi penahkah terpikir,

bagaimana kalau jejaka/i itu bukanlah jodoh kamu yg sebenarnya...

bagaimana jika jejaka/i itu hanyalah mainan usia remajamu saja...


bagaimana jika jejaka/i itu di masa hadapan bukanlah orang yang bakal mengisi hidupmu...

pernahkah terpikir,
usia remajamu dihabiskan dengan insan yang sebenarnya bukan ditakdirkan milikmu..

bayangkan,
betapa banyak kasih sayangmu yg telah dicurahkan kepada insan yang sebenarnya bukanlah
insan yang bakal melayari bahtera rumah tangga bersamamu kelak..

love is something to be appreciate not to be waste..love the nature, u gain the heart


aku tahu betapa indah, bila dicintai dan mencintai seseorang...
betapa aku berharap diri ini dicintai dan mencintai seseorang, tapi perasaan ini hanyalah akan menjadi satu racun, jika cinta yang disalurkan bukanlah milik aku yg sebenarnya...

bersabarlah kawan...
janji Allah itu benar...

till next time, stay tune on...bk@tv
kih3

yup, it is...!

                       life is like a ladybird.come nowhere.and be somewhere.it's like my life.

oh my life..hari ni aku kena marah dengan doktor...sbb..aku x prepare before jumpa dia hri ni..huhu..padan muka aku..saper suh kau x redi betul2 dulu before jumpa doktor tuh...

aku mmg akui kesalahan aku..aku patut prepare dlu..jgn main copy paste je material tuh..

"ha amik kau...!"

melimpah ruah soalan doktor tanya aku..aku pulak, 

"errr...."
"aaaa..."
"i don't knoe..."

i deserve this humiliation..in front of those ppl, huh! jatuh saham aku..kih3
tp xpe la, dorang pun kena marah gak..kih3

kalau sebelum ni, aku xpenah kena marah, wlpn aku x prepare apa2 sblm jumpa doktor, main copy paste dr internet jek...sebelum ni dpt layanan baik dr doktor, org msia kan..tp kali ni...huhu..pengajaran buat aku..lain kali kena prepare before jumpa doktor..

bercakap pasal studi ni, teringat aku ade sorg ustaz ni penah kasi tau, sistem pendidikan kat msia skrg ni bukanlah mementingkan ilmu, tp mementingkan peperiksaan..asal dpt keputusan cemerlang, xkisah student nak jadi apa, asalkan akademik ok, then it's okay..
bila ustaz tu cakap cam tu, aku pun terpikir, aku pun cam tu, dalam otak studi-studi..

kenapa..?
sebab nak lulus dengan cemerlang, lepas ni dpt masuk uni, dapat pegi oversea..bla..bla..

tgk insiden hr ni, xkan jadi cam ni kalau aku anggap ilmu for life, bukan semata-mata utk assignment..akn timbul rasa tanggungjawab dlm diri aku utk do some research, not just copy paste from the internet..huhu..*insap*

kenyataannya, xde guna studi semata-mata utk xm, sbb lps ni akan lupa, bila dah abis xm, ilmu yg kau belajar sumer dah dicurahkan atas ketas peksa..jadi apa lg yg tinggal...

bayangkan out there, berapa ramai yg berfikiran cam aku, studi sbb nk lulus xm...berapa ramai yg benar-benar ikhlas belajar, sbb nak dpt ilmu, bukan untuk lulus xm...berapa ramai yg benar-benar ikhlas kerana Allah taala..

aku terpikir, kini baru aku tahu, hidup ini bukanlah semata-mata untuk xm, ilmu tu bukan hanya pada kertas peperiksaan, bila dah abis xm, xberguna lagi..bukan!

it's something u live with it...

it's something u treasure and use in everydays life...