i admit most of the time, it was my fault..but sometimes i just don't get it why am i feeling so down and so annoyed at the same time..i felt like i'm useless...nothing good came out from me..and i'm the one who is causing all the trouble and problems..as if it's like i'm the criminal...being hatred and being dislike by others..the feeling can't just settle down like that..i felt so stress!!!
i can't even smile freely like before...i felt useless..i can't felt the happiness anymore...it is so tensed..my brain is going to blow...
ahhh...it's so good to cried out loud...i felt at ease somehow..
it's good sometimes try to express your feeling..if you can't do it in the real life face to face with others..you can use the advantages of having internet at the tip of your fingers , right?
express how you feel...then you can be at peace..other way is take ablution..not just blunt ablution..take ablution with pure intention..firstly, close your eyes, try to stay calm...try not think about anything..just relax..don't ever think about the annoyance at this very moment..try to enjoy the minute of calmness..
then, put a very pure intention only for Allah inside your heart..until that, then you can start to perform your ablution..if not, try to calm..think of something nice and funny, that can make you smile, even for a second..
i already did this to myself..sometimes my experiment went well but sometimes not..but most of the time, i felt at ease after i did this..i don't know if it's not working on others, but for me i enjoy that feeling, even only for a second..
other than this, i ate a lot when i'm stress..i ate everything..most of the time i ended up feeling overly full due to my unconscious habit of eating..and fall asleep the next..but i enjoy eating..it makes me happy..
the thing that i love the most..ICE CREAM!!! i even dared to go downstairs late in the night just to buy ice cream at farouq's market..my favourite flavor is strawberry..the moisturize creamy strawberry ice cream when put in the tip of your lips..flow inside your throat..woah..so sweet..i can't hardly express the real feeling..one can't imagine the sensation if he doesn't experience it himself..
but the thing here that i want to say, different people has different way of managing with stress..as for me i eat and eat while i felt stress..and for you, only you know your own need..try to look for the thing that can ease your stress or temper..try to find something that can be use (for example, eating food) when you are in need for support (from other but you can't find one) but changing it into something that easy to do according to your level yet very effective...
that's enough already..hopes can be benefit..
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